He knew so much more than I thought he did and I was blocking him out because it hurt too much and I saw nothing but an insurmountable chasm. When I tried listening to this, I figured if I were in here, he must be furious at me. I couldn’t deal with any of it. I felt so guilty.
I can’t believe the situation I’m in. He’s still a ghost to me but he’s actually alive and I can’t talk to him or see him in real life. I’m crying a lot more now than I was, that is for sure. It was so much easier to hope for death. This situation requires much more courage. I feel like I’m being toyed with by my own side while the other side sharpens their knives.
Adieu Paris Lyrics
Adieu, Paris
Mon, ancien amour
Could I have loved you much less
Or wanted you more ?
O, Adieu…
Regarde la lumière
Et regarde ton regard
I looked in your eyes, so long
and hard
L’envie des étolies
L'écho de nos rires
Au milieu des débris
O, Adieu Paris
You've taken back all that
you'd given to me
O, Adieu...
Regarde la lumière
Et regarde ton regard
I looked in your eyes, so long
and hard
L’envie des étolies
Après la tristesse
Larmes sur la page
Après la douleur
Le premier cri de rage
Seulement silence
Alors étudie mon visage
Ce sera le dernier que vous
voyez de moi
Adieu, mes amis
L'envie des etoiles
So long, fare thee well, mes amis
O, Adieu Paris
Regarde la lumière
Et regarde ton regard
I looked in your eyes, so long
and hard
L’envie des étolies
Adieu Paris
Mon ancien amour
O, Adieu
Regard la lumiere...
I looked in your eyes, so long
and hard
Adieu Paris, mon ancien amour
Adieu Paris, mon ancien amour
Adieu Paris, mon ancien amour
Adieu...